Dear Diary,
yesterday's art class was quite a chore. I'm almost done, it's just that, besides fixing some cracks on the clothes part and fixing the background, I needed to apply more color variety and texture to my subject's skin. I had to keep in mind that my hand needed to be at the end of the brush but steady enough to apply something. It's like figure drawing, but it feels more of a chore because the brush strokes mostly don't show, concerning me in the process, and noticing the most minute details of color makes you wonder how much can be done. Any way, let's start to how all this happened to give some insight to doing this process.
Now my class time starts with me explaining to my art teacher that my subject's smile has made her lips too small in proportion to her head. He admits the same opinion from his analysis on my piece and tells me to set the pallet and repaint the lips. Once I established the pallet, my teacher then created a dark shade to outline where the two lips meet. The color combination is possibly crimson red, some ultramarine blue, and maybe a small bit of burnt sienna and/or burnt umber. After that, I had to apply the various lip colors with crimson red and some ultramarine blue for darkening, and also some flesh tint and cadmium red. I think it took me around thirty minutes to figure out the coloring. I was even informed by my teacher to lighten and saturate the bottom lip with white. So, I had to use a white filled brush to carefully have the still wet colors blend with the white. I also had to make sure that the lips retain their texture. This was completed when I added some reflecting light off her bottom lip. It's a bit more difficult than expected because the reflecting lights need to be realistic in direction and size. However, I can't simply add small strokes of white, I also had to make sure that they blended gradually around the darker areas of the lips. I can't exactly remember how I added texture to the upper lip. I think my teacher helped a little on that part by making some of the strokes more defined. Not to mention, that I had to apply the dark outline again because the areas where the outline was needed would be covered accidentally by other lip colors.
After fixing the mouth once more, my teacher then informed me that it was time that I finished the texture of the skin, even adding more color by applying some shades of pink where I could see based on further analysis from the reference photo.I scrolled through the picture for a short while, wondering what in the world else is needed to be totally finished. I even asked my teacher the percentage the painting or the subject is complete, or at least her skin I believe. To my surprise and maybe disappointment, he said that I was only 70-80% done. Possibly not wanting me to end up whining about my situation, he told me to just keep moving forward. Like I said, applying the texture is hard, and when I tried to apply some pink around the neck area (note the pink was mixed with I believe some cool grey), but I felt that the application looked a bit more of a mess. So, I tried to add some needed cool grey colors to at least give the values their shape. I especially, needed to turn to mixing the turpanoid into the pallets for easier application, as per instruction by my teacher. I think maybe I should've used less turpenoid and more paint, but I felt my body more driven to apply the colors and make it as perfect as possible. In short, I felt more focused on the painting than I did in common sense. Eventually, my effort in application strayed from the neck to her left side of the face, when my teacher told me that I did a decent job on the neck.
I told myself, you can do this, you can fight, you have to, and remember what my teacher said: to be careful and make results as perfect as possible because the final details need those key ingredients for the painting to be complete. My teacher did a small reminder of what was to be done by fixing the neck a little, seriously, it seemed like a bigger fix for me at first, and then did the same around the cheek bone and eye socket. I studied his brushstrokes and the way he help the paintbrush. The way he held the paintbrush was as though he delicately held a chopstick for some kind of dance or song that mom told and showed me but I seriously forgot most about. I think it was that the brush was under the index finger, the thumb would be touching around the very end, manipulating its leverage, while the middle finger served as a pivot. The way he creates the brushstrokes were more varied in angle than my own attempts. I actually thought that my applications were supposed to be more flat on the brush. As in mostly flat brushstrokes to make it not seem that I was simply filling in a gap like a child would with a coloring book.
I did my best. I thought that the cheek bone should be shaded more of a pink since my teacher focused more on applying that color there, even though I noticed that the shades in the cheek require more of a brownish green color. Sometimes when I tried to present the brushstrokes, I ended up making some facial structures that don't work out well. For example, I panted the lower part of her cheek unintentionally saggy and older looking. My teacher noticed my efforts and mistakes, and told me what I had done, and fixed the piece a little. The application he finished around the cheek and eye was amazing, I swear, I saw some cross hatching lines that added some organic feeling. Eventually, I got to trying to do the same thing around the left eyebrow and forehead, a little depressed that I still have a long way to go. Yet my teacher reassured me that this technique is really advanced and difficult to do. This is a technique that the old masters used to perform. That helped me a little, but that I did also question how much I should consider my own responsibility and try. I want to try harder, I don't want to make excuses.
So yeah, that's that, I got to do the eyebrow and forehead well, even my teacher told me that I did a decent job. Now all I have to do is fix the right eyebrow because it looks bald and maybe do the right face as well. This also includes the background and pieces of the clothing. Maybe I'll be able to finish this after two lessons. Did I also mention that my teacher convinced me to make another portrait so that I can continue mastering my skills? The answer i said was yes. I knew that I had to achieve this ability, I just have to try.